July, 23 2007 / Mom
Odd to some but a familiar thing that continues to happen to me. Still being drawn back to Sean"s clothing, pictures and just everything left behind. I scan through pictures, albums that I had scrapbooked and there it is the paper that says and this is where it all ended dated July 23, 2004. I am not writing a tribute or something happy today. If I had not found this today I would have ignored it and went on but that was the date trouble was here and all my attempts to keep in contact with my son were gone.Things change when you leave home and marry but not in our case for the better. Today, I am filled with anger at all those nosey nobodies that could not let Sean & Kerri grow in their marriage without having to be included even with their finances. Yes, that is YOU! Actually this is just vent time for me as they would never think to enlighten thmselves to visit this site. But as Sean said, "Although we cannot see you, we know you are here, smiling down and watching over us as we say "I Do". You are forever in our hearts and forever in our lives. Loving You Forever Sean Mom Close
"There is one less light in the world but one more star in the sky."
Look at the stars how they shine and glow, some of the stars died a long time ago. Still they shine in the evening skies, for you see, like love, starlight never dies. --Unknown
When the darkness of the evening crowds away the sun's last rays and you lift your eyes to Heaven, you may see a brand new blaze.
It's brilliant and it's lovely, and it's shining just for you. It's a brand new star in Heaven, lit to welcome someone new.
Though your days must seem much longer since he had to cross that line, if you lift your eyes to Heaven, you will see that Sean still shines,
It's just a soft reminder that although he is gone, as long as you let love grow, his light shines on.
And though you may want him in your arms, he's as safe as he can be, for he is in the arms of angels and the most perfect company.
And even in the morning, stars are not lost in the light of day, your loved one is shining, and not so far away.
So many beautiful memories you left to trace, And for every special memory we can see your face. For the path you took was not up to you, And for this short life you did not choose. You'll keep the heavens smiling like you did down here, In my heart I will always keep you close and near. No more pain no more suffering will you go through, And remember my Son, I will always love you. You will not be forgotten but cherished forever, Because one day in heaven we will be there together. So Wait for the day for us to walk them Heavenly streets, For it's by them Heavenly gates where you wait for us to meet
There's never a teardrop that God doesn't see He knows when a sparrow falls from a tree There's never a moment when God doesn't care Never a time when he won't hear your prayer
When the sun sits down on the mountains and the clouds turn purple and pink and golden rays send fingers out to touch me, I stop breathing and inhale with my heart because I know that along those glittering strands of light lies my connection to you.
Remembering you on the 4th of July / Mom
As the 4th of July comes upon us I remember you and your firework displays. Oh, how no one ever knew what to expect. Homemade gadgets to power up your bottle rockets and the roman candle duels with all of your friends. I still see that great big grin when everything went just perfect. Hours turned to days of celebrating. I still have one of your homemade handheld blasters. It has seen it's better days but that memory of you is still inside of me. I know the frog in the cellar will rest easy from now on. Your last 4th on this Earth was one I will never forget. Chad, Natalie, Trent, Halie and us. I know you were sad that night as Maddi you could not see, but you made it through with that smile I dearly miss. So Sean I guess I'll go as I imagine the show is about to begin. I love you and miss you terribly. See you soon.Love Later Mom Close
A Mother's Path of Life / Judy Read @. Mom's Funeral Read >>
A Mother's Path of Life / Judy Read @. Mom's Funeral
Mom, you gave me the most important thing in the world and because of that I am in heaven. You always believed in me, believe me now that I am in heaven. What greater gift could you have given me than to give me life twice. Love, Sean
A Mother's Path of Life
The young mother set her foot on the path of life. "Is this the long way?" she asked. And the guide said: '"Yes, and the way is hard. And you will be old before you reach the end of it. But the end will be better than the beginning."
But the young mother was happy, and she could not believe that anything could be better than these years. So she played with her children, and gathered flowers for them along the way, and bathed them in the clear streams; and the sun shone on them, and the young Mother cried, "Nothing will ever be lovelier than this."
Then the night came, and the storm, and the path were dark, and the children shook with fear and cold, and the mother drew them close and covered them with her mantle, and the children said, "Mother, we are not afraid, for you are near, and no harm can come."
And the morning came, and there was a hill ahead, and the children climbed and grew weary and the mother was weary. But at all times she said to the children, "A little patience and we are there." So the children climbed and when they reached the top they said, "Mother, we would not have done it without you."
And the mother, when she lay down at night looked up at the stars, and said, "This is a better day than the last, for my children have learned fortitude in the face of hardness. Yesterday I gave them courage. today I have given them strength."
And the next day came strange clouds which darkened the earth, clouds of war and hate and evil, and the children groped and stumbled, and the mother said: Look up, Lift your eyes to the light." And the children looked and saw above the clouds an everlasting glory, and it guided them beyond the darkness. And that night the Mother said, "This is the best day of all, for I have shown my children God."
And the days went on, and the weeks and the months and years, and the mother grew old and she was little and bent. But her children were tall and strong, and walked with courage. And when the way was rough, they lifted her, for she was as light as a feather; and at last they came to a hill, and beyond they could see a shining road and golden gates flung wide. And mother said: "I have reached the end of my journey. And now I know the end is better than the beginning, for my children can walk alone, and their children after them."
And the children said, "You will alway walk with us, Mother, even when you have gone through the gates." And they stood and watched her as she went on alone, and the gates closed after her. And they said: "We cannot see her, but she is with us still. A Mother like ours is more than a memory. She is a living presence."
Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street, she's the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks, she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not well.
Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystalized in your every teardrop. She's the place you came from, your first home, and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can separate you, not even death.
As Time Passes / Judy As time passes, as it seems to do, in its infinite way, it’s amazing that your heart continues to beat. But it does. It doesn’t miss a beat of the pain. It doesn’t miss a beat of the sorrow. It doesn’t miss a beat of the longing for Sean whom you have lost. It doesn’t miss a beat of the tender memories you hold dear and close.
As time passes, as it seems to do, in its infinite way, the meaning of forever never gets easier to comprehend. Forever is never again having them physically present in this life with us. Forever is wishing things were different. Forever is wondering what would be today if Sean was here with us. Forever is the feeling it’s unbearable to live with this.
As time passes, as it seems to do, in its infinite way, other’s think time should lessen the struggle. But what they don’t know is, it doesn’t. With time, it doesn’t get any easy. Time doesn’t heal our broken hearts. Time doesn’t forget what loss is. Time doesn’t help them to understand losing a child is the greatest trial a parent can confront. Time is only teaching us to learn to live with this tremendous loss.
As time passes, as it seems to do, our futures move in on us. The future is realizing that the hopes and dreams for them have ended in this world. The future is finding a way to move through this journey of loss. The future is honoring them in the vivid life we know they lived and keeping their memories alive. The future is knowing I will be you friend till the end of time, never denying you your pain, never being afraid to hear you speak your Sean's name, never expecting you to get over it. Instead, always with you in this journey, always understanding the difficulty of this journey, always wishing you peace and love as often as I can. Close
Sean, Your Mom and I spent a couple hours on Friday just talking. Your Mom and I have been close friends for many years. She has been a strength to me through losing my Mom. My Mom is in heaven now, look for her, I know she is there. Give her my love and tell her we miss her.
When Mom was in her last days, I asked her to tell you how much your Mom loves and misses you. Somehow I wish you could give her some peace and comfort. If we could bring you home, you wouldn't want to come, because it is that perfect and beautiful where you are. You so deserve it. I am so proud of you and the decision you made in Randy's office that day. You are to be commended, alot of young men would not admit they needed to talk to someone, but a Mother's prayers were answered.
It's just so hard. I never realized how difficult until my Mom died. You just feel empty, like you will never feel joy again. Watch over your family and I will keep in touch with her also. Visit your Mom in her dreams. Love Always for You and Your Family Judy
Happy Birthday Sean / Denise Kneale Have a fantastic Birthday Sean with all the other angels and look for James to party with. Keep your wings around your dear family, so they may feel the peace you now feel. Love and Blessings Denise mum to: http://james-kneale.memory-of.comClose
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